Faulbaer's Schlafmulde :: english :: love :: three months and counting
2012.11.30, 00:26

three months and counting

it's funny really how everything turns out sometimes. a year ago I thought I had experienced a painful relationship of some sort and even felt like calling this love but now I have to find out that whatever that might have been it was nothing compared to real love.

it's not about the butterflies - not about being separated - not about the fun and not about the pain.

what it is about - to me at least - is how close I feel to her, the way I know I can trust her with all my heart. the way she never gets annoying or "to much" even after days spent in the same room. I don't think I'm explaining this well but the way it used to be before is ... well ... a lot different.

in the past I tended to become fed up with people, became bored and annoyed with people quite quickly. open end visits took as long as up to eight hours tops but then one of us had to leave. timed visits could go on for a bit longer if I could tell when those would end. I don't know if this is imaginable to you but this is still the case. people still get on my nerves after a relatively short amount of time ... everybody but my dear beloved wife that is. of her I cannot get enough.

time flies while we are together. I'm still waiting for this to end in a way because I cannot believe this is really happening. the way it looks like, though, I won't hold my breath. so far it doesn't feel as if this was going to end any time soon - let's hope for it!

due to a business meeting we are now separated for some days. that's ok as whenever I think of her besides the feeling of being a bit lonely there is this undefined warm fuzziness that makes me smile. the next thing then is to text or to write something or just to anticipate my return and then to hold her in my arms again and become whole.

I don't know why exactly I'm writing about this here in my tech-and-rant blog ... I reckon it's mostly just to let you know that I'm well - I mean REALLY WELL - although you haven't heard much from me in the recent past. that said I'm going to go back to blogging about tech stuff again for the future, will keep the blog techie and rantie from now on. ten more posts, maybe twenty and this will all be forgotten.

I'm not sure about this because it would break certain rules I defined for this blog when I started it years ago but I might actually remove some of the past posts of make them less easily accessible. but as I said this has to be decided another day.

now I'm getting tired.

Faulbaer (sweet dreams coming up)

 
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